School’s Out For Summer.
After a long hiatus, I am back. With a new name, a new way of life maybe. I had to take some time off. I think it was the blend of everything that has been happening with my health combined with planning our surprise wedding. This seemed a lower priority on the chain. My friend Jo has asked me many times to re-boot this and maybe even change the tone of how I write. So why not? I will give it a go.
The last couple of days I have been reflective of the last few years. Maybe it is because I just turned 30, or maybe it is because I am now married. Or maybe it is wondering what is to come.
I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want, what am I striving for, where I want to be? Do I want to be Miss Career 2000? Do I want more children? Do I want to live here forever? I don’t know. See I was so certain it would be marriage, career and then more children. Now I don’t know. I hate the thought of leaving my beautiful friends and family but at the same time, I hate the thought of never trying something new and different. I’ve said since we came home from New York I want to go back there… I want to live there for a while, however, not indefinately. I want to experience life.
I had to postpone finishing my degree as I wasn’t permitted time off to be with my son when he has his operations. However, being at my mother’s graduation made me more determined to finish as soon as possible.
I have achieved the greatest goal. I married my gorgeous Kelly. Something I have wanted for so long. Now it is time to map out where to from here. What next? What is my next goal? Finish uni… Yes. Travel more… Yes. Have more children… I think so. And by children I mean child. Just one thank you.
Most of all, the mission is to be happy. That’s a great starting off point. So far, so good.

I am so glad you are back! For a long time I had very focused, rigid short and long time goals and when I had achieved them all I felt totally lost. Now I just follow a direction. It’s less pressure!